my smile

i hide my fears behind my smile 

knowing that i'm in denial

 i know that i'm insecure

 i am just not sure 

my morbid life

 is black and white

 and i will not put up a fight

 it's suicide

 without a guide

 it's torture

 and martyrdom

 but it's not like i'm calm

 and not like i'm alright 

and the future is not bright 

~goodridance26~